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Thursday, December 21, 2017

Three Winter Poems


WINTER DAWN

In first wintry morning light
The window sill peeling paint
Has grown a beard of ice
Overnight. Glacial darkness
Now is luminous chill. Wan
Beams bounce about, silent.
Walls, doors, bed, and sofa
Glow like the full moon.
Hidden behind the horizon, a lantern
Reddens the sky, blue and gray.
Winsome, time turns, smiles
For the photographer, who
Traps the moment in amber
As eternity enters the room.


THREE MILES SOUTH OF THE CANADIAN BORDER

When Ragnarok comes, it will be bleakest winter. Snowstorms will pour forth incessantly, clotty ash engulfing the air. The sun will evaporate, the moon and stars join permanently with darkness. Rivers, lakes, oceans—vast expanses—will densify into sludge. Hills, trees, the entire land will disappear beneath rising snowy heaps. Wild animals, bony, starving, will wander about the whiteness. Domestic animals will perish from bitterest cold and neglect. Shuddering, everyone still alive will wrap themselves inside fireless caves.

When the world ends, it will all take place at the epicenter of all wretchedness, nexus of all misery, and seat of all gloom…three miles south of the Canadian border.


WINTER SOLSTICE
December 21, 1989

I am prisoner to conversation with an old man with a broken nose, mute with catarrh, sedentary and limping.
The window is squealing like a small animal, trapped.
Outside in the empty parking lot sits an abandoned car, dried out extinct turtle.

Dryness scrapes skin off the flaking season lying lifeless, electricity gone dead.
Clouds cast to the ground the feeble eyes of a pallid man.
Trees written in charcoal thrust into the sky, exclaiming, “I am turned into a pillar of salt!”

Winter breaks its stony face against the hammering wind,
Dust and rocks mix with air,
Grass grinds like pebbles underfoot.

A warm room withers faster than a disconnected leaf.
Memories scatter, twigs across the carpet.
Deaf to clapping, hooded thoughts wander.
Only blue sparks crackle in recognition.



Thursday, December 14, 2017

I climb...


I climb…

God, my Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet swift as those of hinds and enables me to go upon the heights.—Habakkuk 3:19

I climb the mountain swiftly like a sure-footed deer.
Chaos, noise, smoke, trains, ceaseless phalanxes rising disappear faster than pebbles rattling down a ravine.
Silence joins along, footfalls in his wake.
Awakened by sudden quiet, dark spirits of the forest shamble beneath a behemoth of shadows. Spotting no visitors, they turn back to probing the soil.
Clouds raise chins, disdainful at the intruder.
The guardian of the heights briskly snaps his cloak.
The sky bends its diaphragm, filling the lungs of the vault.
Rushing forward, winds burst, monsoon springs. The sun thrusts his spear.
At the summit a doorway opens to quickening vistas all around.
Who will stay beside me to gently touch my shoulder, telling me I am not alone?

Originally published in Cecile’s Writers (July 17, 2016)


Sunday, December 10, 2017

Aphorisms


APHORISMS

Politics is a realm in which iniquity is multiplied many times over when the masses like herds of animals incited by morally corrupt leaders participate in systemic evil on a massive scale.

Degrade the rule of law and reap the consequences of a lawless society.

Aloneness is alienation, solitude communion.

Everything is, yet nothing is as it was.

You can have your cake and eat it, too, not the other way around.

A friend in deed is a friend indeed.

Tend to a boiling pot lest it overflow.

A leap to safety is not guaranteed by a look.

Tyrants impose, peoples depose.

Wickedness will worsen when it is motivated by the underlying fear of retribution.

Tremulous truth is in reality conquering courage.

When the sun, moon, and stars bowed down to a child, it was only a dream.

Originally published in Cacti Fur (November 29, 2017)



December 10, 1968—A Fateful Day


DECEMBER 10, 1968—A FATEFUL DAY

December 10, 1968 was a fateful day for Thomas Merton. It was the day he died.

If we examine the details of Merton’s last day on earth, we will discover it is rich in symbolism. In The Seven Mountains of Thomas Merton (1993), for example, Michael Mott relates (page 555):

“On the night of November 19, [Thomas Merton] had another dream of mountains and woke up to the sense that he had missed something vital and obvious:

‘There is another side of Kanchenjunga and of every mountain—the side that has never been photographed and turned into postcards. That is the only side worth seeing.’ [Asian Notes, October-December 1968, 94]”

The mountain is in this instance a symbol of God. Decades now, Merton has been reflecting on and writing about the mystery of God, the visible side of the mountain. He little expects, he does not know that he is soon about to see “the only side worth seeing,” “the side that has never been photographed and turned into postcards.”

“What seems the most likely reconstruction is that Merton came out of the shower either wearing a pair of drawers or naked. His feet may have been wet still from the shower. The standing fan had been on day and night during that hot week. Merton may have slipped and drawn the fan sharply toward him for support, or he may have simply tried to change its position. The wiring was faulty, giving him a shock which was sufficient in itself to kill as he cried out. It is quite possible the shock also gave him a massive heart attack, though this was a secondary cause of death.” (page 567)

On the slopes of Kanchenjunga,
I fell asleep, sorely tried.
Awakened by an angel,
I found myself on the other side.



Thomas Merton and Chatral Rinpoche. Used with permission
of the Thomas Merton Center at Bellarmine University.

Thursday, November 30, 2017

Supremo


SUPREMO
To Andres Bonifacio

Your bones may be lost forever,
But we are possessed, fortunately,
Of your photograph, in which
You glare—proud, sullen,

Belligerent, yet also brave, staunch,
Inspired—Supremo indeed.
I do not doubt your genius,
Testified by, for one,

Your marvelous capacity
For self-education, though
You must admit that
Your keenness is blunted

By your weakness
In the aspect of strategy:
Your inability to ride
Rapidly transforming events

So that they instead
Rode you, shamefully,
To your wretched execution—
Unjust, no doubt,

Still, result of your failure
To play your cards well.
Unyielding to a fault,
Prickly, reckless,

Flawed by fatal hubris,
You forecast your own fate
In the red and black flags
Of the Katipunan.

Now, standing in dust and smoke
Beclouding your monument
By the illustrious sculptor,
Guillermo Tolentino,

I see the Great Plebeian
Brandishing bolo and gun
And wonder about the message
He purportedly signifies.

Is there wisdom in violence?
Behold, the sword that liberates
Is the selfsame weapon
That tragically destroys!

Originally published in Anak Sastra (October 26, 2014), pages 80-81



Thursday, November 2, 2017

All Souls’


ALL SOULS’

The day of the dead is short respite for the living.
The tumult of life is stilled by the remembrance of the dead.
The living remembers the dead as the silence of the grass.
The grass is the dead ever present among the living.

The dead have not forgotten that life is breath and water.
They hover in the air, waiting for rain.
Water is the prayers of the living for the thirsty.
The living sometimes forget, the dead ever remember.



Mourning Angel Cemetery Sculpture

Monday, October 16, 2017

The Madrigal


THE MADRIGAL

I listened
To a madrigal—
Fire, fire, fire,
They sang
So brightly,
Ethereal,
I imagined
The song itself,
Everyone
Consumed
By flames.

Originally published in Eastlit (August 1, 2015)



Element of Fire, detail by Liz Whaley

Friday, October 6, 2017

Song of the Solitary


SONG OF THE SOLITARY

The moon abides invisibly in a day painted white.
At my shoulder a dark green shadow is floating, the sea.
Breakers rush toward shore, roaring lions inside a wind tunnel.
Peering within myself, I see bottomless water.
Stillness enters the space between two swells of breath.
Waiting is a desert journey, a dry mountain disappearing into the skies.
Solitude, a dove, hovers, bearing a gift.

For Father Pat Giordano, SJ


Trwyn Du Lighthouse

Monday, September 4, 2017

Aphorisms


APHORISMS

Tonic more powerful than music or spoken words is silence.

Solitude is the companionable presence of God.

A conscience at peace is a good night’s sleep.

Coffee is a beverage you drink with your nose and digest with your heart.

After the snake sheds its skin, it’s the same snake.

All play and no work makes Jack unemployed.

The path to Heaven is cratered with bad intentions.

A thousand words do not paint a picture.

Study the past in order to break with the past.

In practice law is not a well-wrought urn but the purveyor of tortuous vagaries.

Originally published in The Penmen Review (April 10, 2017)



Blue Train


BLUE TRAIN
To John Coltrane

I listened to your blue train sauntering by...
Rhythmic, not marching but the two-step
Of a bird in a courtship dance, switching feet...
Coolly, fresh waters of a brook...cloudless cobalt blue sky...
Curling stone sliding, deep diver gliding...
Bass, low rumble of savannah elephants;
Cymbals, soft rain, silver pom-poms;
Saxophone, lead, flashing a deck of cards;
Trumpet, sharp, blending harmonies;
Piano, lively, dueling with the brass;
Saxophone, once more, announcing a theme one way,
Declaring it another, opening, closing doors...
Approaching the station...wheels slowing, whistle blowing...
Weaving in and out, a boxer feints, dodges, scores—drums.



John Coltrane (1926-67)

Monday, August 28, 2017

Bayani


BAYANI

Hero and bayani do not have the same meaning. Bayani is a richer word than hero because it may be rooted in bayan as place or in doing something great, not for oneself, but for a greater good, for community or nation.

Old heroes were those who contributed to the birth of a nation. Maybe the modern bayani is one who pushes the envelope further by contributing to a nation in a global world.

 
—Ambeth R. Ocampo, “‘Bayani’ a richer word than ‘hero’,” Philippine Daily Inquirer (September 2, 2016) 
 
TATLONG BAYANI

Old heroes:


New heroes:


WHAT MAKES A HERO?

Through Executive Order No. 75 issued on March 28, 1993, former president Fidel Ramos created the National Heroes Commission, which is tasked to study and recommend national heroes to be recognized for their character and contributions to the country.

The commission was also tasked to evaluate, recommend, and come up with the criteria to determine how a historical figure qualifies as a national hero.

The committee came up with the following criteria:

- Heroes are those who have a concept of nation, and aspire and struggle for the nation’s freedom
- Heroes define and contribute to a system or life of freedom and order for a nation
- Heroes contribute to the quality of life and destiny of a nation

Additional criteria were adopted by the Technical Committee of the National Heroes Committee on November 15, 1995:

- Heroes are part of the people’s expression
- Heroes think of the future, especially of the future generations
- The choice of heroes involves the entire process that made a particular person a hero

On November 15, 1995, the technical committee of the National Heroes commission chose 9 Filipino historical figures to be considered national heroes:

- Jose Rizal
- Andres Bonifacio
- Emilio Aguinaldo
- Apolinario Mabini
- Marcelo H. Del Pilar
- Sultan Dipatuan Kudarat
- Juan Luna
- Melchora Aquino
- Gabriela Silang

Link: https://www.rappler.com/newsbreak/iq/180016-fast-facts-filipino-national-hero-criteria-heroes-day-philippines?utm_source=facebook&utm_medium=social

—Hannah Mallorca, “FAST FACTS: What makes a Filipino historical figure a national hero?” Rappler.com, August 28, 2017

MARCOS NOT A HERO

In a 26-page pamphlet entitled, “Why Ferdinand E. Marcos Should Not Be Buried at the Libingan ng mga Bayani”, the NHCP disputed Marcos’ record as a soldier during World War II, saying that it is “fraught with myths, factual inconsistencies, and lies.”

The commission said that Marcos “lied about receiving the Distinguished Service Cross, Silver Star, and Order of the Purple Heart,” a claim he supposedly made as early as 1945.

The NHCP earlier said it was the US Medal of Honor that Marcos claimed he received, but the commission on Monday, August 8, clarified it was the Distinguished Service Cross, along with the two other awards.

Marcos’ supposed guerrilla unit, Ang Mga Maharlika, was also “never officially recognized and neither was his leadership of it,” said the NHCP.

US officials, added the NHCP, “did not recognize Mr. Marcos’ rank promotion,” from major in 1944 to lieutenant colonel by 1947.

The former president’s actions as a soldier during WWII were likewise “officially called into question” by the US military.

Along with other sources, the NHCP referred to two documents from the Guerrilla Unit Recognition Files (1942-1948) in the Philippine Archives Collection.

The Ang Mga Maharlika file “contains letters, memoranda, reports, and accounts relating to the guerrilla unit Maj. Marcos claimed to have founded and led.”

Meanwhile, the Allas Intelligence Unit file “pertains to the organization led by Cipriano Allas, which claimed to be the intelligence unit of Ang Mga Maharlika.”

When a historical matter is doubtful, like Marcos’ WWII record, the NHCP wrote in the study’s executive summary that it “may not be established or taken as fact.”

“A doubtful record also does not serve as sound, unassailable basis of historical recognition of any sort, let alone burial in a site intended, as its name suggests, for heroes,” the NHCP added.

…Published on July 12, the pamphlet was the result of NHCP’s study as part of its mandate under Republic Act 10086 “to conduct and disseminate historical research and resolve historical controversies.”

Link: https://www.rappler.com/nation/142145-nhcp-objects-marcos-burial-libingan-bayani
 
—Michael Bueza, “NHCP objects to Marcos burial at Libingan ng mga Bayani,” Rappler.com, August 6, 2016
 
 
 
Indio Bravo (1880) by Juan Luna

Sunday, July 23, 2017

Seven Times a Day


SEVEN TIMES A DAY

The series of poems, “Seven Times a Day,” is inspired by Psalm 119:164: “Seven times a day I praise you.” Each of the component poems is composed in tribute to the themes—somewhat loosely interpreted—of the seven hours of public prayer in the liturgy of Roman Catholic monasticism. In chronological order, the hours and their respective thematic interpretations are:

Vigils, the spirit of watchfulness;
Lauds, praise;
Terce, beginnings in the spiritual life;
Sext, patience in trials;
None, conversio mores;
Vespers, thanksgiving;
and Compline, consideration of death.

Because Jesus Christ passed away at None, the ninth hour of the day or 3:00 pm, the theme of this hour is repentance and conversion, conversio mores.


Solomon Dedicates the Temple at Jerusalem (c. 1896-1902) by James Tissot


Vigils


2:00 AM

No dogs bark at this hour,
Desolate as an abandoned field burnt by summer,
Forlorn as shaving curls on a workshop floor long unswept.

I hear a motorcycle roar along a distant road,
Harsher than the sound of sawing wood.

Then silence thickens like a paste sealing
Joints and crevices of a room
Gradually deafening to the slightest vibration.

The world is asleep, I am awake.
Time heaves like a resting animal.

Now is the moment to descend into stillness
Deep as darkness enfolding underground rivers,
Delicate as a tissue broken by a cough.

I am solitary as a metal tool
Seeking the warm grasp of a skillful hand.

Before the smallest beginning of a noise tears like flint into the fabric of the night,
I will take long draughts, cupping my hands in the springs of tranquility.


The world is asleep, I am awake.


Lauds


PROLOGUE

Gloaming is gradually pushing night away.
Casting a magician’s spell, day sweeps
His arm in a wide arc, left to right.
The sky submits to his behest.
Darkness retreats faster than low tide pulling back its forces,
Fading until morning is a garment washed many times.

Dawn is a gray wolf’s coat streaked with white clouds.
Blue and pink light diffuse, a river entering a delta.
Moon and stars now gleam faintly, soft as kindness.
Daylight is spilling, gentle waterfall, over the window sill.

The house begins to stir, a living animal.
I hear tinkling utensils, clattering plates, sloshing glasses.
Coffee is percolating, a gurgling snorkel.
Birds let loose warbles, sinuous wrist movements of a dancer.
Clearing throats repeatedly, roosters do not understand
Only once is necessary to remind everyone day is here.

Din rises, tittering audience before a performance.
Turning squeakily, a faucet drills water into a pail.
Commuters gun their engines. Motorcycles roar, punching holes in paper.
Chaos breaks out, a bull bounding free from a maze.


...fading until morning is a garment washed many times.


Terce


Morning steps forward...

Morning steps forward, freshly washed, newly fed, tautly wound like a limber bow,
Ready to spring, tumble, wheel, pull at oars, throw the hammer, leap the long jump,
Slice fine fillets smoothly in water, upswept, propelled by a parachute of air,
Sling saucers aloft like pizza dough, snare them spinning on sticks, hop,
Flip bowls from foot to head, head to foot, right to left, left, right, back again.


Morning steps forward...


Sext


I eat dry bread…

I eat dry bread in the desert:
It tastes like a cake of dust.
I breathe in and out powdery clouds:
Nostrils singe, snorting fire.
I swallow my own saliva:
Thick paste coats my inside throat.
How will I sustain my journey in this land
When my mouth is filled with sand?

I falter inside a steel kettle, sparks popping about.
Black footprints flame at the edges.
I am dried up, a gourd rattling seeds.
Heat waves deceive like the devil.
Thirsty, I lick at a mirage with my eyes.
Twisting, I glimpse the taskmaster sun.
Hands astride hips, he glares mercilessly,
Glowering white noon death rays.

The sky is livid, a clown murderer, crimson lips, grinning.
He spills sacksful of hot ash from above.
Hordes, buried alive, scratch at the insides of a wooden coffin.
Spiritless as the burning air gone lifeless,
I am dark as a moonless, starless sky,
Staggering in an expanse unbounded beyond extreme sight,
Devoid of any atom of hope,
Despair, a universe expanding endlessly.


...an expanse unbounded beyond extreme sight...


None


Afternoon has lost its fierceness…

Afternoon has lost its fierceness like the death of summer grass, dry and crackling underfoot.

Dappled shadows fuse, separate, and coalesce—grayly shifting furtive forest animal.

Faintly the wind rises, gently kicking into circular motion fronds spinning in the liquid eyes of ponds.

Branches wave back and forth, swings, doors opening and closing, leaves entering and leaving.

Black asphalt roads glow, windswept dark coal fed by hot billows firing an old bronze censer.

Orange cats, writhing, lithe, play on jade grass, shiny crabs jostling, toys scattered at day’s end.

Trees, outspreading dream catcher nets, poise against the horizon, tracing graceful fractals against the sky.

Daylight reddens, crushing pink roses against white cheeks of clouds.

Weakening, the hour bathes in vermilion blooms drifting in the darkening ocean.

Threatening black outbursts, thick clouds close to shore migrate toward the sun now deepening crimson with fatigue.

Remotely, obscured by a diaphanous curtain of rain, boats fade in and out, motes on a planetary visage.

Pummeled by distant turbulence, outlying storms, swirling fists, hurl violently into a far constellation.


The Crucifixion (1457-59) by Andrea Mantegna

Vespers


DARKENING AFTERNOONS

I love the wooden beauty of darkening afternoons
Softly varnishing the oldness of the sky,
Weathered like the brows of studious hills.

Stillness dwells in the air like a great thinker,
Pondering forgotten equations, hidden runes.
Clouds are flecked with the fires of beaten copper,
Skies limpid with the blues of pale oceans.
Shadows weave fingers through grass looms
As fields gaze blankly at the sun.
Birds grasp at the last utterances of a prayer,
Day vanishes like a broken pot.

Dusk is redolent with the aged interiors of sleeping cabinets, richly inhabited.


I love the wooden beauty of darkening afternoons...


Compline


EPILOGUE

Night begins in disquiet, pacing back and forth,
Disturbed by spoons crossing swords with forks
Banging on plates as against shields,
Clinking glasses like missiles pinging helmets.
Rumbling low, a water stream is drumming
An aluminum sink, bottom of a boat.

Beyond the wall, cars whoosh by like subway trains.
Passersby in threes or fours are chortling birds.
Two houses down, a woman hollers faintly at a bawling child.
Cats scrambling after prey kick boxes bumping together as they fall.

A small animal is making tiny scraping noises inside the ceiling.
The wind rises, shakes leaves, dislodging one fruit,
Thudding on the roof, bouncing twice,
Rolling audibly…one, two more follow.
The house folds his hands, sitting silently for a while.
Everything is slowing down, floating brushwood.

The clock is ticking but not on the wall. Time machine
Oscillating to a gradually disappearing frequency,
I listen for the pop of ratchet and spring pulling the hammer backward
To strike the bell once, twice, then push off, sleep pulling at the oars.


Grandfather clock face (detail)